Friday Confessions.

I am a big ball of fear.

My eyes have been really light-sensitive lately. I fear a sarcoid relapse, because I have also been needing more sleep. But then, it has been sunny. There’s more light. And I have also been fighting off every bug in the world. Seriously. Viruses are flying in from Calcutta to try and get me. I’m sure of it.

Arwen sent me a link to a bunch of agents to whom I might pitch my Regency romance novel. I am so scared to pitch it. I just wrote it. It’s not like it’s a REAL book. It’s just me writing stuff. Not a professional over here!

I’m so scared I’m not getting this Essay Clinic thing right. In a regular classroom, you plan a unit, and you tweak it on the fly, when you see what’s not working. Now, I’m sending a Finished Product out to be tested by other teachers. Our boss has no education background. I don’t know if he’s going to ‘get’ tweaking.

As a side note, I love John Mellencamp. I suppose that’s a confession in its own. He’s probably a Republican.

>wibble< Anyone else a freakazoid this week?

11 Comments to “Friday Confessions.”

  1. By Duncan, January 25, 2008 @ 12:58 pm

    Sarcoid?
    I am not a freakazoid this week but I have been a freakazoid in the past so I feel your pain.

  2. By Arwen, January 25, 2008 @ 3:20 pm

    It has been really light lately, and the light’s been bugging me in part because there have been so many viruses. So see your doctor, but be calm if you can in the meantime.

    Yes, you’re a writer, but you don’t have to be a professional one, Ms. Pants, if you don’t want to. You could be, though, if you did want to. So the question is, why do you write? Why’d you make a book? Do you want it out there? If you do, we’ll send ours out together, and show each other our intensely humiliating rejection letters! Yay! And maybe you won’t even HAVE an intensely humiliating rejection letter.

    Confession: It appears that I spend less time on the internet when I don’t have children around.

  3. By Arwen, January 25, 2008 @ 3:26 pm

    OH, and Liz I totes just forwarded those links from Rachel. She did all the Work of Researching Them.

  4. By rachel, January 25, 2008 @ 4:44 pm

    It’s that time of year, when the sun is in your eyes no matter which way you turn. Usually it has the decency to be cloudy.
    I confess to wanting to leap around in an unseemly manner and encourage you to submit that bad bwah. But I imagine that wouldn’t actually be helpful.

  5. By Arwen, January 25, 2008 @ 7:42 pm

    I have found that my first querying attempts have been a ridiculously personal process. For the twin attributes of Clinical and Intimate, it is rather like a medical exam.

    I mean, there’s nothing really intimate IN the letter – the industry appears to prefer a letter as box-standard in format as the 5 paragraph essay, which I know you’re just going to adore, Liz (snorf) – but the promotion of self is shudderingly difficult task for me. And if I know you at all, for you.

    So, I needed to write my first queries without anyone looking, hidden in the back of my closet, late at night, wrapped completely in brown paper.

    And after I get rejected a couple of times, I will start from scratch.

    So: this is what I say. Rachel writes a mean query letter. We have proof of this. And now that I have indulged my mental illness, perhaps we could ply her with wee cakes from the Bon Ton and Play Query all Together.

  6. By Liz, January 25, 2008 @ 7:59 pm

    Duncan, sarcoidosis is a strange auto-immune disorder. Like its cousin Lupus, it’s absolutely no fun at all.

    I will call the doctor, but not in a hasty way. Thanks for the research, Rachel! Hey, ahve you ever had Diplomat Cake? Because it’s Bon Ton-a-licious!

    Why’d I write that book? To see if I could. To see if I COULD get published. And because I was reading a lot of drecxk that made me think, “Hey, I could do a much better job than that.”

    Why do I write in general? Because I am a woman with a lot of opinions and a lot of ideas.

    Incidentally, I ran into Rachel about 15 minutes ago and I had a minor epiphany. I was scared of the book. In fact, I brightened up when we realized I might even have lost it. And then I thought, “Hang on. I teach kids to read and I am afraid of a book? How does that make sense?

    So I went to the storage closet and unearthed all my floppy disks and I am going to have a look at it. Maybe after a glass of wine, though.

  7. By rachel, January 26, 2008 @ 6:45 am

    I’ve never had anything from Bon Ton! How’s that for a confession?

  8. By Liz, January 26, 2008 @ 4:44 pm

    Then Bon Ton onwards, I say!

  9. By Beth, January 27, 2008 @ 11:28 am

    I’ve been wanting to visit the Bon Ton ever since Liz wrote about it so eloquently ages ago (last Easter?). Just a hint in case someone is planning a trek.

  10. By stephanie, January 27, 2008 @ 1:47 pm

    I just looked up sarcoid. I hope you don’t have a relapse. 🙁

    Also, you should pitch your book. Don’t fear the fear!

  11. By Liz, January 27, 2008 @ 2:55 pm

    I really hope not, Stephanie. And I’m edging my way around to pitching the book.

    Beth, we should totally do that some Saturday.

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