That’s A First.

Today I was going to go to a housewarming event. Morgan’s sister and her wonderful fiancee have bought property together, and I wanted to poke my nose in and say hi. I got off the Skytrain. I walked to where their house was.

And I froze.

This has never happened to me before. Always with a degree of social anxiety, I prefer small groups of people, most of whom I know very well. But I can do strangers.  I’m okay with new locations. I can discuss ornamental basil or TV shows or architecture with total strangers.

But I looked at that house and it didn’t look like anyone was there. The curtains were drawn. It looked too quiet. There was nothing happening there.  And I thought, “I have the wrong day. I can’t knock on that door.”

But now I reread the Facebook invitation. I think I did have the right day. Did I just see it in a quiet moment? Were the denizens inside wondering why no one was there? Should I have knocked?

I’ve been thinking all day, and I still don’t know: Should I have knocked on the door?

6 Comments to “That’s A First.”

  1. By Arwen, March 8, 2009 @ 11:41 pm

    If it helps, I have frozen similarly.

  2. By Songbird, March 9, 2009 @ 6:24 am

    I get it, too.

  3. By Erin, March 9, 2009 @ 8:57 am

    TOTALLY understand. More social panic than you can shake a stick at, over here.

  4. By Stephanie, March 9, 2009 @ 6:39 pm

    Ooh…tough one. I probably wouldn’t have knocked either.

  5. By Liz, March 9, 2009 @ 9:56 pm

    I’m really glad I’m not alone on this. it’s been bugging me ever since.

  6. By rachel, March 10, 2009 @ 9:06 am

    I wouldn’t have knocked. AND, I probably wouldn’t even have gone there, so I see your social anxiety and raise you LAZY!

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