I haven’t been writing here. I can blame February, or I can blame my own laziness. I’d like to say I’m channeling my energy into my photos, or writing stories. Sadly, no. Mostly, I just have no energy.

It’s been a weird couple of weeks. I’ve been working through some feelings about car jockeying. It’s still driving cars listening to rock and roll. But Tech Boss’s sincere speech about how they’ll always need jockeys may have been just so much hot air. The work he sends me amounts to between a quarter and a third of work Rock Boss gave me. I’m underutilized. I take cars to the garage. That’s it. No checking on glass chips. No ICBC trips (I miss my buddy Wing Wong and how he likes to explain damage). I haven’t seen the glass guys for months. When I went into the body shop for the first time in months to drop off some paper, Jake and Brian and Steve hailed me like I’d been lost at sea and presumed dead.

So. The reduced paycheck is a bitch. But when Rock Boss left, he left me wide open for Tech Boss to take away the biggest balm against stinging winter rain slashing across my face: The smiles of my friends as I worked through my day. I miss Rock Boss, but I also feel like Tech Boss just told me I couldn’t have any friends.

I realize I am a drama queen with this. Many of my friends are unemployed, or underemployed, and here I’m bitching about something so small. I apologize for that. I also wonder how bad I’d feel if I quit and did something else.

Maybe not that bad.

2 Comments to “Adjusting”

  1. By gen, February 16, 2011 @ 11:48 am

    It isn’t such a small thing. Very rarely is the job not about the people. I am sure you already have but have you talked to him and explained. Someone has to be doing the stuff you used to do so who is it?

  2. By Liz, February 16, 2011 @ 12:00 pm

    I think the new guy he hired without telling any of the jockeys is doing that stuff. I met the new guy when he rocked up at the garage with a car. I told him I worked for the company, and asked what was wrong with the car. He told me he worked for the company as well. He was just sing the car to get around on his job. Awkward.

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